(PAST) teaflOwer * 토끼 양 나의 생활

=)))

2009-01-05T05:51:00.000-08:00

officially abandon this blog? =X
haha (=

2009-01-03T05:42:00.000-08:00

some drawings by Ai..haha...so cute=3

来年からは新しく　

歩いて行こう。

2009年、答えのでる年。

たくさん学び、たくさん遊ぶ。

楽しみだなぁ・・・
Ai otsuka

我们也一起展望2009，新的一年吧。=)

Ai's 5th album! LOVE LETTER

hopefully I have extra money to buy...TT-TT

east of eden

2009-01-03T01:35:00.000-08:00

Fate Reverse by SG Wannabe (East of Eden OST)
It's a nice song=)

East of Eden became another drama in my fav Korean drama list after On Air & Beethoven virus.
The first few episodes are too sad...T-T
there are 50 episodes in this drama. I wonder how the story is going to be developed with so much feelings and emtions included.

Anyway...instead of feeling sad for Lee Dong Chul and Gook Young Ran, I feel more sad for Ji Hyun and Dong Wook. Ji Hyun suffered much more than Young Ran.T-T
Dong Chul and Dong Wook..their relationship with their parents, is the most touching in this drama.

回到现时世界。:X

hmm...在过一天就要开学了。Xianling很久以前借我的书还没有看完，我还有多两个人的圣诞卡还没有画，朋友们的圣诞礼物我到现在也还没有买。好想好像回到以前可以画一整天的画。可是现在似乎很难找到那样的动力。韩语，因为没有人陪我学，我已经忘得差不多了；笛子，我也是很久没有吹了；KCC，除了Marcus和Kaching以外，没有人支持我。

看来很多事，我都是半途而废。=X

aza aza fighting!!=)

Heartbreak Library

2009-01-02T22:38:00.000-08:00

''Geu-namja-ui chaek 198-jjok... Page 198 in his Book

Watching you by SS501

Humming...

2009-01-01T10:42:00.000-08:00

''When we see twinkling starlight, the star already disappeared. While the light is taking a million light year to traveling in the space, the star itself dies leaving its own light.
It's like love which has disappeared when we realise how precious it is.''

幸福的上面覆盖着一层淡淡的忧伤。

a new year, a new start, a new jouney

2008-12-31T20:54:00.000-08:00

msg record:
2009 is at your doorstep! :) Rmb, life is short, break the rules, forgive&forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, & never regret anything that made you smile.send to all the ppl tht you love & do not want to lose in 2009,including me. if you get 3sms back you're a great person:-)
from: Dolamo
11:14pm 31-DEC-08

2009 is at your doorstep! :) Rmb, life is short, break the rules, forgive&forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, & never regret anything that made you smile.send to all the ppl tht you love & do not want to lose in 2009,including me. if you get 3sms back you're a great person:-)
from: Kaching:))
11:25pm 31-DEC-08

今天是2008的最后一天一生只能经历一次，在此我将一堆心送给你，纯洁友谊靠真心，心心相惜是知心，祝你天天都开心，心，真心，千颗心，万颗心，正如我心，希望一切随你心，愿你年年都开心！一切都顺心
from: May
11:26pm 31-DEC-08

新的1年开始，祝你好事接2连3，心情4季如春，生活5颜6色，7彩缤纷，偶尔8点小财，烦恼抛到9霄云外。请接受我10心10意的祝福。=D
from: Yanxi
11:42pm 31-DEC-08

Happy new year!! :)
from: Salty^ ^
11:44pm 31-DEC-08

2009 is at your doorstep! :) Rmb, life is short, break the rules, forgive&forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, & never regret anything that made you smile.send to all the ppl tht you love & do not want to lose in 2009,including me. if you get 3sms back you're a great person:-)
from: Zoo'~
11:50pm 31-DEC-08

Happy new year^ ^ may ur 2009 b fully blessed^ ^
from: Rawker bean=)
11:52pm 31-DEC-08

2009 is at your doorstep! :) Rmb, life is short, break the rules, forgive&forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, & never regret anything that made you smile.send to all the ppl tht you love & do not want to lose in 2009,including me. if you get 3sms back you're a great person:-)
from: Vivien
11:56pm 31-DEC-08

say goodbye to 2008 and say hello to 2009...wishing you&family new year full of success, good health& prosperity..
from: Xinjie
12:03am 1-JAN-09

Happy new year ya'll..:)
from: Zoo'~
12:08am 1-JAN-09

2009 is at your doorstep! :) Rmb, life is short, break the rules, forgive&forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, & never regret anything that made you smile.send to all the ppl tht you love & do not want to lose in 2009,including me. if you get 3sms back you're a great person:-)
from: Liting O.o
12:52am 1-JAN-09

Yup..thank you very muchi!! may our friendship lasts for eva!! really appreciate to hv u for my firned, let's jia you together for 2009 too!!
from: Kaching:))
12:59am 1-JAN-09

2009 is at your doorstep! :) Rmb, life is short, break the rules, forgive&forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, & never regret anything that made you smile.send to all the ppl tht you love & do not want to lose in 2009,including me. if you get 3sms back you're a great person:-)
from: Dory Fish~
1:01am 1-JAN-09

Happy new year and hope you will have a good and happy 2009..
from: 老公xinyi
1:09am 1-JAN-09

send to all the ppl tht you love & do not want to lose in 2009,including me. if you get 3sms back you're a great person:-)

haha..but i received 14 msg back=) instead of feeling I am a great person, I feel that my friends, they are great people.=D

thank you for all your wishes=)

last night I count down with Grace and Lihui in msn. haha=D

HAPPY NEW YEAR lihui~HAPPY NEW YEAR grace~

and HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone=)

31-12-08

2008-12-31T05:33:00.000-08:00

本来是打算带着笑脸迎接新年的。但是很多时候，很多事情都是身不由己。
转眼间，一年又过去了，时光飞逝，没有等待任何人，也没有流连任何事就这样过去了。

已经很久没有见到家人了，常常连思念他们的心我也忘记了。爸爸发给我的email充满着悲伤与无奈，我却也只是一时感到愧疚，然后又继续过着我自私的生活。
我依然以很冷淡的态度对待David。对那些把他当作我的叔叔的人，我总是很感激。我的家，不在我住的地方，而是在我的心里。
学校...很多时候我还是感到力不从心。
庄子曰：“吾生也有涯，而知也无涯，以有涯随无涯，殆己！已而为知者，殆而已矣。”要做到活到老，学到老，不是一件容易的事。有的时很虽然感到精疲力尽，但是还是要坚持走下去。
朋友们...每次想到她们，我就会打从心底的笑出来。=)
同时我又会很难过。快乐的日子越多，离别的时候我会越舍不得。新的一年过去，代表离别越来越近了。我只希望在剩下的两年里，能为朋友们做更多的事，创造更多值得珍惜的回忆与快乐的时光。=)

每年我都有很多的愿望，而现在的我只想全心全意地信靠上帝。
今天是2008年的最后一天。亦是结束，也是开始。
如同生命一样，结束代表着开始。
我打开房间的窗户，迎接新的一年。
回顾着过往，展望着未来。=)

我们若要生活，就该为自己建造一种充满感受、思索和行动的时钟，用它来代替这个枯燥、单调、以愁闷来扼杀心灵，带有责备意味和冷冷地滴答着的时间。－－高尔基

希望明天下小雨。=)
and
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

30-12-08=D

2008-12-30T04:03:00.000-08:00

went Marina Square this morning=3
hohoho Akatsuki bought her 'boyfriend' as christmas present for us. XD

^-^ ~

Lihui, Grace, Yanxi and Kaching came TP today...so I became tour guide for today.xD

2008-12-29T06:07:00.000-08:00

hmm.
the cactus Xianling gave me is still lying on my table.(for quite a few months already. I think. :X)
momo visited me a few weeks ago, and promised to give me a pot. (I dont have one at home that's why I haven't plant the cactus>_<)
ook..It's an excuse.

message record:
momo: Ys...remember last time I say want get you a small pot for your cactus? Tomorrow I bring...Your cactus still alive?
me: Haha..I don't kw if it was still alive or not :X
momo: Eeek! You so bad..It's a life...><'' haha u got soil at home? If not i bring too..
me: T-T ok..help me bring soil also>_<

That' why I always say I can't keep any plants or pets at home...because I know I won't take good care of them. >_<~
but anyway...tomorrow meeting Lihui, Grace, Yanxi & Kaching~~ xD
and the day after tomorrow momo will bring pot for me. oh I mean for cactus.(I dont need pot. =X)
so you must stay alive cactus!>_<...
but are you still alive? Seriouly...I'm not sure about this. =X

2008-12-29T03:30:00.000-08:00

그들.。

CHRISTmas=)

2008-12-26T21:49:00.000-08:00

圣诞节终于过了。=)

很怀念去年我所度过的圣诞节。虽然没有下雪，在寒冷的天气，因为和爸爸在一起而感到温暖得节日，才算是真正的节日吧。

今年的平安夜是和Grace, Lihui, Gaen, Doris, Xianxian, Xinjie, Marcus, 还有XX一起度过的。haha

(平安夜，因为Xianxian和XX让我觉得很温馨。我真心的为你们俩个感到高兴。=)

圣诞节那天又和妈妈还有David一起出去吃饭。

P.S. 我差点忘记圣诞节之后要选elective。>_< 谢谢jiaxin提醒我。

P.P.S.

如果敌人让你生气，那说明你还没有胜他的把握。
如果朋友让你生气，那说明你还在意他的友情。

所以我生你的气，说明我还是在意你的对吗? =)

26-12-08

2008-12-26T03:33:00.000-08:00

昨天晚上看韩剧《伊甸之东》看到4:00am =X

可是真的很好看。=D

这好像是第一部因为故事里的亲情而打动我的韩剧。o(>_<)o~

东旭和东哲之间的感情真的很让人感动呢。

但是因为太迟睡了，今天早上起来一点精神也没有。

本来今天要去momo家的。听momo说akatuski买了新的衣服给shiumi。:3 可是我今天又不可以去。T-T 因为妈妈答应别人要我去帮忙。(完全没有事先问过我)

今天一整天在画画，剪纸, 还有打瞌睡。haha=X

Narcissus

2008-12-25T05:06:00.000-08:00

The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

炼金术士

(引子)

The Alchemist picked up a book that someone in the caravan had brought. Leafing through the pages, he found a story about Narcissus.
The alchemist knew the legend of Narcissus, a youth who knelt daily beside a lake to contemplate his own beauty. He was so fascinated by himself that, one morning, he fell into the lake and drowned. At the spot where he fell, a flower was born, which was called the narcissus.

But this was not how the author of the book,Oscar Wilde ended the story. He said that when Narcissus died, the goddesses of the forest appeared and found the lake, which had been fresh water, transformed into a lake of salty tears.
"Why do you weep?" the goddesses asked.
"I weep for Narcissus," the lake replied.
"Ah, it is no surprise that you weep for Narcissus," they said, "for though we always pursued him in the forest, you alone could contemplate his beauty close at hand."
"But...was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked.
"Who better than you to know that?" the goddesses said in wonder. "After all, it was by your banks that he knelt each day to contemplate himself!"
The lake was silent for some time.
Finally, it said: "I weep for Narcissus, but I never noticed that Narcissus was beautiful.
I weep because, each time he knelt beside my banks, I could see, in the depths of his eyes, my own beauty reflected."

"What a lovely story," the alchemist thought.

outing with grace and lihui=)

2008-12-24T23:31:00.000-08:00

平安夜的早上我在地铁站碰到了Grace。
于是我们边聊天边坐地铁到Pasir Ris 等Lihui来。=)

本来我们的计划是去放风筝，但是因为下雨，所以就在附近的mac坐下聊天。我忽然想起，去年的圣诞节也在下着雨呢。转眼间，一年有过去了。我已经很久没有和Grace 还有Lihui出去了。
随便的聊几句，一切又仿佛回到以前我们曾有过的那些快乐的日子。只是，以前所讲的人与事都已经变成了过去式。
和有些朋友的缘分，也注定变成了往事。
我们聊了很多。
以前的人与事，现在的朋友与学校，以及未来的我们。
虽然我们一直向前走着，但有时也会走回过去，徘徊在过去的回忆里，流连忘返。
对未来，总是会多多少少充满一些恐惧感吧?
不安，不肯定。
但是在我内心深处，我知道有一份平安在里面。上帝那着一盏灯在为来的路上等待着我。=)
谢谢Lihui,也谢谢Grace。=)

“在这个星球上存在着一种伟大的真理：无论你是谁，或无论你想做什么事，当你真心想得到某种东西时，那是因为这种愿望产生宇宙的灵魂。这就是你来到世间的使命。

A philosophy of life: I'm an adventurer, looking for treasure. ”

Everyone on earth has a treasure that awaits him.
You've got to find the treasure, so that everything you have learned along the way can make sense.
There is only one way to learn. It's through action.
Wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure.

Listen to your heart. It knows all things, because it came from the Soul of the World and it will one day return there.

excerpts from O Alquimista by Paulo Coelho

merry christmas='(

2008-12-24T08:38:00.000-08:00

今天是平安夜。
我刚刚发现我丢了一件很重要的东西。
其实我也是很难过。='(

Silent night, holy night,
all is calm, all is bright
round yon virgin
mother and child.
Holy infant, so tender and mild,
sleep in heavenly peace,
sleep in heavenly peace.

Silent night, holy night,
shepherds quake at the sight;
glories stream from heaven afar,
heavenly hosts sing Alleluia!
Christ the Savior is born,
Christ the Savior is born!

Silent night, holy night,
Son of God, love's pure light;
radiant beams from thy holy face with the dawn of redeeming grace,
Jesus, Lord, at thy birth,
Jesus, Lord, at thy birth.

在一个下雪的天气里，一个卖报纸的小男孩为了躲避寒冷，跑进了附近的教堂休息。他坐在最后面，听着牧师在台上讲圣经。听着听着，小男孩被感动了。等牧师讲完，开始从前面传奉献袋。每个人都放了一些钱进去袋子里。当袋子传到小男孩那里时，他做了一件让所有人吃惊的事：他把袋子放在一旁，然后自己站在袋子上面。牧师惊讶地问他为什么这样做，小男孩流着眼泪说：“今天下雪，我没有卖掉报纸，所以没有钱。但是如果真的有这么一位神愿意为我而献出他的生命，那么我也愿意把我的生命交托给他。”

P.S. it's merry CHRISTmas >_< ~~x' mas~~

Closed Note

2008-12-23T04:47:00.001-08:00

''Perhaps I’m exaggerating, but I think people meet each other because their destinies are connected. To be able to meet unexpectedly in a limited time, I believe it’s a miracle.
Before I met you, I was like these kids; I only knew how to dream. However, words cannot describe how lucky I am right now. If this is a dream, I hope I will never wake up. If this is reality, even if it’s only a moment, I don't care. I can say proudly that I’m doing great.
Just thinking about you now, my heart feels warm. To me you’re where the sun is. Even though you seem cold on the outside, inside, your heart is like sun.
I’m probably not the only one who thinks this way, because you have so much charm. From your paintings, I also saw those who also felt your charm and your talent. There will be many others in the future too. Amongst them, you will shine brightly.
It’s my greatest happiness if I can just stay by your side and silently protect you. ''
——Ibuki Mano

这是去年的电影，因为竹内结子，所以我一直都很想看这部电影。=D

也许是因为竹内结子的缘故吧，我觉得《尘封笔记》是一部很鼓励人心的电影。隐藏在在心中的能量。每个人的心里，都有着不同凡响的力量。

透过Ibuki Mano，我看到了真诚的心。

虽然电影的结局有点悲哀，可是却又是充满着无限的希望。

从Ibuki Mano身上，每个人都学到了很多。

勇气，来自内心的力量。=)

很感人的电影。o(>_<)o~

on the 3rd of my hoilday...

2008-12-23T00:51:00.000-08:00

read some manga...=)

cat street
''Before the curtain comes down for the finale, I will make sure I stand on my own feet.
Can I continue walking forward with everyone? Can I bring dreams to someone else?

From now on we will still step onto countless dark paths, and we will probably get lost, hurt or depressed again; and we will probably pray countless times for happiness. But we already know the path to happiness.
On the rooftop, there are four bronze cats.''

终于读完了cat street。=)

是一个温暖人心的故事。故事里的人每一个最后都能够从跌倒的地方勇敢地站起来，让人感到鼓励。我也希望我和朋友间的友谊会像故事里的那样真挚。=)

vampire knignt

''Well, then in that case I will keep running away from you, so that you will have a reason to live by still having enemies to go after."

其实我并不是很喜欢vampire knight。=X

这是这一话让人觉得有点悲哀。

romeo x juliet

看完了romeo x juliet，老实说我还是比较喜欢莎士比亚所写的原著。=X

或者说比较喜欢原著的结局。

莎士比亚所写的悲剧剧本，（其实这一部也不算是悲局吧。）我也很喜欢《李尔王》和《哈姆雷特》。但是我还是比较喜欢喜剧多过悲剧=P，《威尼斯商人》也许是我最喜欢的吧。

2nd day of my holiday~

2008-12-22T05:46:00.000-08:00

In the morning...
I went sam's house to take the toy house.=3
kamsahamnida Samantha~ o(^-^)O

Afternoon...I went Bugis with jia xin.=)

then jf and doris joined us later haha=)

I'm very happy today haha=)

P.S. 对不起doris & junfeng。今天对你们讲了很过分的话。最近我太累了，也觉得压力很大，所以才会对你们讲了过分的话。真的对不起。>_<

只是我真的受到了伤害。现在我也不知道到底是谁的错了。不管她对你们讲了什么，还是你们觉得她有什么不对，都请不要告诉我。我真的不知道我还能坚持到多久。我选择什么都不知道，什么都没有听到。

haha=)最近我很容易就觉得压力很大。

越来越开始怀疑我到底适不适合现在的course.

但是就算知道自己不适合，现在也已经太迟了。我没有第二条路可以走，也不可以回头。

YS~

2008-12-22T05:33:00.000-08:00

momo found this doll pic from website whose name is YS..xD
haha
a doll & male version of me? xD

1st day of my holiday

2008-12-19T23:36:00.000-08:00

start from friday..one day before the holiday
I went to school around 9 am, but I didnt go for critic on Friday because I need to go ICA.
Then later went to jinghui's church event.=)

thank you for invite me jh=)

cards i received haha=)

then my holiday officially starts.^-^
I woke up at 7:30 am, then take bus from Hougang interchange to Bedok interchange, then from there to Boon lay.
It's such a long journey. T^T

we played dot game at the house of one of Gaen's church mates. =)

see...so many dots on Gaen's face. She is not good at this game. haha xP

P.S. xianling I saw jj there also..haha

I always know that his love is abundant, but it still touches me very much after I watched the videos and heard the testimony.
There is none like You

No one else can touch my heart like You do

I could search for all eternity long

And find there is none like You

I reached home around 3pm then left at 4pm again for work.

I didn't work for such a LONG time.

the plates are as heavy as usual.>_<

after work chirsti and me took pic with christmas tree. haha.

finally, reached home by 1:20am=)

I'm so tired, but I need to go church tomorrow morning and piano lesson(which I also didn't go for many weeks already >_<) afterwards then going to work again. Then Monday I'm going out also. hmm..I' m so tired.

haha =X

ok, I shall go rest now.

FIGHTING!o(>_<)o~

merry chirstmas in advance xD

2008-12-19T09:02:00.000-08:00

making christmas cards for my friends in TP =3
glad to know u all =D

I made 10 cards and left 2 more cards need to draw=)

xl and I saw this book mark at parkway..so we bought 4 for doris, chirstina, xl and me=)

the end of another block

2008-12-19T08:38:00.000-08:00

FINALLY=D
I can sleep well tonight T-T

I want to say thank you and sorry to many people again.o(>_<)o
tO:
akatuski, monica, christina, zuraizan, xianling, doris, munting, gaen
and many other ppl too
thank you for helping me.>_<
I always tend to depend on others.=X sorry I know I'm irritating sometimes.
sorry if i promised to help but didnt do much in the end.

and also
tO:
xianxian, liting, marcus, lihui, grace, yanxi...
sorry i dont have time to go out with u all recently. i was too busy and tired T-T
sorry.

FIGHTING!

plans for my short holiday

2008-12-17T02:55:00.000-08:00

sat-work
sun-church & piano lesson

mon-go sam's house in morning, then go shopping with jiaxin they all~ haha=3

tue-work?

wed-meet lihui & grace?

thur-work?

fri-meet kaching? or go disturb momo/xianxian/samantha/liting? or work?

sat-clean my room & work?

hmm..so many things need to do..T-T

朱自清《匆匆》

燕子去了，有再来的时候；杨柳枯了，有再青的时候；桃花谢了，有再开的时候。但是，聪明的，你告诉我，我们的日子为什么一去不复返呢？——是有人偷了他们罢：那是谁？又藏在何处呢？是他们自己逃走了罢：现在又到了哪里呢？　　

我不知道他们给了我多少日子；但我的手确乎是渐渐空虚了。在默默里算着，八千多日子已经从我手中溜去；像针尖上一滴水滴在大海里，我的日子滴在时间的流里，没有声音，也没有影子。我不禁头涔涔而泪潸潸了。　　

去的尽管去了，来的尽管来着；去来的中间，又怎样地匆匆呢？早上我起来的时候，小屋里射进两三方斜斜的太阳。太阳他有脚啊，轻轻悄悄地挪移了；我也茫茫然跟着旋转。于是——洗手的时候，日子从水盆里过去；吃饭的时候，日子从饭碗里过去；默默时，便从凝然的双眼前过去。我觉察他去的匆匆了，伸出手遮挽时，他又从遮挽着的手边过去，天黑时，我躺在床上，他便伶伶俐俐地从我身上跨过，从我脚边飞去了。等我睁开眼和太阳再见，这算又溜走了一日。我掩着面叹息。但是新来的日子的影儿又开始在叹息里闪过了。　　

在逃去如飞的日子里，在千门万户的世界里的我能做些什么呢？只有徘徊罢了，只有匆匆罢了；在八千多日的匆匆里，除徘徊外，又剩些什么呢？过去的日子如轻烟，被微风吹散了，如薄雾，被初阳蒸融了；我留着些什么痕迹呢？我何曾留着像游丝样的痕迹呢？我赤裸裸来到这世界，转眼间也将赤裸裸的回去罢？但不能平的，为什么偏要白白走这一遭啊？　　

你聪明的，告诉我，我们的日子为什么一去不复返呢？　　

时间总是不知不觉地就过去。留给你的是满足或是遗憾只能靠自己去努力。

aza aza fighting!

5 mins before ur birthday=D

2008-12-16T07:55:00.000-08:00

happy birthday o(^ ^)o~
Akatsuki

对不起，明天不能一起庆祝你的生日。（因为我的功课还没有作完。ToT)
不管怎样...生日快乐!haha xD
让我们一起在TP努力吧。aza aza fighting!!
=P

the letter from count of monte cristo

2008-12-15T06:16:00.000-08:00

"My Dear Maximilian,
"There is a felucca for you at anchor. Jacopo will carry you to Leghorn, where Monsieur Noirtier awaits his granddaughter, whom he wishes to bless before you lead her to the altar. All that is in this grotto, my friend, my house in the Champs Elysees, and my chateau at Treport, are the marriage gifts bestowed by Edmond Dantes upon the son of his old master, Morrel.

Mademoiselle de Villefort will share them with you; for I entreat her to give to the poor the immense fortune reverting to her from her father, now a madman, and her brother who died last September with his mother. Tell the angel who will watch over your future destiny, Morrel, to pray sometimes for a man, who like Satan thought himself for an instant equal to God, but who now acknowledges with Christian humility that God alone possesses supreme power and infinite wisdom. Perhaps those prayers may soften the remorse he feels in his heart.

As for you, Morrel, this is the secret of my conduct towards you. There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more. He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. We must have felt what it is to die, Morrel, that we may appreciate the enjoyments of living.

"Live, then, and be happy, beloved children of my heart, and never forget that until the day when God shall deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is summed up in these two words, - `Wait and hope.'

Your friend,
"Edmond Dantes, Count of Monte Cristo."

fighting!

2008-12-15T05:51:00.001-08:00

Akatuski 加油。o(.^ ^.)o~
despite what i said to you..i still feel he actually cares about you. haha.=X

P.S.明天huixian, monica, samantha, liting, grace & gina出去。只有我一个人要在家里做功课。T^T
aza aza fighting!

T-T

2008-12-15T05:25:00.001-08:00

the Korean drama i am watching recently...The World That They Live In

music i am listening recently...SNSD

i like taeyeon's voice=) can you hear me by taeyeon(Beethoven virus OST) is a nice song=)

manga i am reading recently...

救命...我要做功课!!o(>_<)o...

=D

2008-12-14T07:53:00.001-08:00

xianling, chirsti, gaen and peidi came my house today=DDD

they played my keyboard and had fun today.haha=3(but they didn't eat a lot at my house.T-T sorry the food is not nice.>_<.)

xl, gaen & pad's cups...chirsti's wasn't there. according to xl it's because christi's cup was eaten by herself.XD

sorry the food is not nice and sorry if u all feel uncomfortable at my house today.T-T
hope christi, xl, and paddy accept Jesus as your God soon=) i will pray for u all=)
and sorry gaen for letting u waited us for so long.>_<.

P.S.o(^ ^)o~

P.P.S. I'm a bit sad that doris, jiaxin, mt and jf told me they can't come today='(
(ok..I am really sad T-T) but never mind, next time ok?? next time MUST come.T-T
haha.

=l

2008-12-12T07:36:00.000-08:00

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星期天将会是忙碌的一天。=D
希望每个人都能到。o(>_<)o

有点担心会不会顺利，除了祷告以外还是祷告。

希望一切顺利。

hope everyone will have fun tomorrow=3

sakura

2008-12-12T05:04:00.000-08:00

kobukuro-sakura
one of my fav songs of Kobukuro=3

Let's name this nameless flower
There's only one of it in the world
So it's not battered by the cold of winter
So it can rise again when someone calls

A lump of life sleeping within the ground
Pushing aside the asphalt
Whenever I see you, we can share
The loneliness of not being able to meet, just like the sun and moon
Even the flowers that don't bear fruit, and those that wither as buds
Are bathing in the spring wind
Watching your future with someone else

Whenever the cherry blossoms fall
Another unreturned love
Disappears with tears and a smile
And then we grow up
And the sorrow of always chasing after
That strong and pure sorrow
Never changes
Don't ever lose it, let it bloom inside you - love...

When I saw you on the street
You seemed lonesome as you slipped into the crowd
Don't let the swiftness of time
Sully the sparkle within your clear eyes
Don't say a thing, it can't be put into words
The tears you shed will become rain, healing the wounds of my heart
Everyone has a flower on the banks of their heart
That they don't want to let go of It's not a sturdy flower
But a single flower, swaying fragilely
You feel the strength to live In the number of its petals
Even when the storm rages and the wind flattens it down
There's no such thing as a rain that will never let up

Whenever the cherry blossoms fall
Another unreturned love
Disappears with tears and a smile
And then we grow up
And the sorrow of always chasing after
That strong and pure sorrow
Never changes It blooms inside you and me - love...

them=3

2008-12-12T03:18:00.001-08:00

zoo: you may have gun, but i've got fun. LOL

: AHAHAHAHAHA~

the conversation between hungry bean & me

rainbow lover

akatsuki :3

dumbbbb.....Oo

update...

2008-12-12T03:08:00.000-08:00

FINALLY...comdi ends=3
gd job zuraizan, xianling, doris & me~ o(^-^)o~

other than school work...

went to xl'sis house

xl showing her jie jie her sis playing guitar hero=3

watching final destination3 with momo, xianxian, liting & samantha=3

chirstmas card to kunzite=)

dory fish & Mr. jj frog =)

伊蚊&小红帽=D

xl says my heart is yellow...mt & gaen say my heart is white.

only christi has the most normal answer my heart is red, if not i cannot live. haha..xP

烛光午餐with christina o(^-^)o~

my son & dauhter-in-law? xPP

ate cakes with xianling, doris & zuraizan=3

P.S. carrot cake is yummy=3

went food fair with xianling & xl's sis pad pad =P

=)? =(?

2008-12-08T08:30:00.000-08:00

kamsahamnida momo:3
今天去了momo 家~o(^-^)o~
xianxian, liting and samantha...终于又再和你们聚在一起了。TT-TT
上一次大家在一起的时候，是多久以前呢？
谢谢你们。=D
今天真的很快乐很快乐。=3

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TT-TT

2008-12-06T09:30:00.000-08:00

why am I always so useless?
sorry doris christina & xl..I caused so many troubles to u all today..sorry
sorry. TT-TT

05-12-08

2008-12-05T06:03:00.000-08:00

COMDI & 3D ART F are not as fun as samantha told me.=(
Anyway,
for COMDI group work,we are doing on chocolate packaging.=)

But I feel like I'm the most useless group member.=(
sorry xianling, doris & zuraizan.

For 3D art f..i will have binary on my sculpture so i asked xianxian who is from enigneering school=)
i found this pic form website about binary.xD
this person wants to show his love to binary??

but xianxian just says it's totally crab. 0.0
haha...

对不起。

2008-12-04T07:59:00.000-08:00

最近好吗也不和我联系可恶啊

刚才才看到爸爸给我的email。T-T
对不起。不时我不想打电话给你，不是我不想你，只是我最近真的很累很累很累。

2008-12-04T05:26:00.000-08:00

03-12-08

2008-12-03T08:48:00.000-08:00

sorry..I want to help, but I really tired already. I dont know what should i do, who needs more help, i'm just a selfish person after all.

27-11-08

2008-11-27T04:28:00.000-08:00

已经好久没有象今天这么早回家了。=3

I was very touching yesterday. I know there are ppl who really care about me. =3 i thought no one will really bother about my msn msg, but i didn't expected akatsuki, christina, amanda and doris actually asked me what happened. thanku=) really i felt very touching. It might be just a small matter but from this I know there are always ppl there to support me.

sorry..but seriously..i feel a bit irritating to c all these msn msg =X
pls..everyone is feeling stress now..everyone has their own problems..so can we show each other a smile rather than complaining? =D

加油

2008-11-26T05:46:00.000-08:00

to momo:

hmm..managed to ask from 4 ppl now...maybe i will show u more later

fighting! jia you momo=3

to everyone in PID also

I just read my email and realised I have so much work i need to do.

but right now i really scared...GOD pls keep holding my hands and tell me wht should i do.. bless my friends and me and help us to survive.

沉重地压力

2008-11-25T07:38:00.000-08:00

RENDERING..T-T
“压力”写在每个人的脸上。
真的很不好意思...总是打给momo向她抱怨，谢谢doris那天晚上安慰我,虽然我知道你也有很大的压力，你也很辛苦，但是我还是自私地向你诉苦。
对不起xianling & christina。我不知道我最近的脾气不太好，也许因为跟你们很熟，所以才会向你们发脾气吧...o(>_<)o真的谢谢你们的谅解。 KAMSAHAMNIDA!

thx GOD that i can finished my work on time. i feel really bad for didnt go church last Sunday...yet he still bless me and help me finshed my work on time.o(>_<)o

ok..i promised to show momo and akatsuki my work..is it looks ok to u? >_<

FINALLY...i can sleep for awhile today...i will wake up at 5 then do my essay.

17-11-08

2008-11-16T09:45:00.000-08:00

已经两个星期了...今天终于去做工了。

每次晚餐开始的时候，我都会很紧张，害怕等一下会打碎东西...那种感觉让我想起以前在中学，每次要拿回考试成绩时候的紧张心情很像。心会跳的很快。haha...
今天还是两个人负责三个桌子，我今天的搭档是个很好的人，很照顾我，总是尽量让我拿轻的东西。
谢谢~o(>_<)o 客人要我拿东西的时候，听到旁边的客人指着我说：“她还小，不要怪她...她还是小孩子。” o(T T)o...我做错什么事了吗? 小孩子?我? T-T~

16-11-08

2008-11-15T11:54:00.000-08:00

虽然今天我一直努力的画...可是却一直画错。画了一天，不知道在画什么。
现在是早上3:45...我还不想睡，可是朋友们都睡了，不知道该找谁聊天。
觉得很沮丧，因为画了一整天，结果还是似乎没有画到什么。
aza aza fighting!!我知道上帝会永远在我身边支持我的...=3

可是, 可是...该怎么办呢?明天又要上课了，这个星期我都没有练到琴。对不起，老师。>_<
加油。

Can I trust u? Since u promised me...I believe u wont tell anyone right? It's secret between us.

scene from beethoven virus

2008-11-10T08:44:00.000-08:00

윌리엄텔 서곡 - 베토벤 바이러스

看到beethoven virus这个部分的时候，真的觉得很感动...不只是因为音乐，也是因为他们每个人的背后的辛酸与努力。

所以结束时的掌声，才听起来那么的洪亮与振奋人心吧。=)

classic music ROX=)

外出．．．

2008-11-09T07:33:00.000-08:00

今天又出去做功课。现在一个星期每天都看得到学校的同学...连每天晚上睡觉也梦到在学校做功课。TT-TT~

总而言之，今天和xianling, christina, paddy, kenneth & junjie 一起在marine parade做marbling...浪费了很多水。=P

我很想抱怨...可是看看别人，在看看自己，才发现我没有资格。我因该更努力才是。

我请求上帝保佑我们每个人都能做完功课。

三个百度不为人知的秘密!(转载)

2008-11-08T06:30:00.000-08:00

1、百度的网站是http://www.baidu.com/ 试试把百度反着打,超有趣!　　就是http://www.udiab.com.cn/看看会出现什么情况! haha而且注意一下任务栏里~再随便打个词进去看看。很好玩，今天才知道的xDD

2、用baidu 搜索SB , 第一个显示的是google . 用GOOGLE搜索SB,"百度"排第一位,但链接不是百度的.

3、大家都知道百度的网址是 http://www.baidu.com/ 但是，谁能想到他们居然还有另外一个域名：　　http://www.mamashuojiusuannizhucedeyumingzaichangbaidudounengsousuochulai.cn/　域名是拼音，翻译成中文是："妈妈说就算你注册的域名再长百度都能搜索出来"

hahaha...真的很好笑xD

pic speaks thousands of words=)

2008-11-08T05:24:00.000-08:00

but I think it's still better if I explain the pics..haha..=3
*xianling's new pet 夹夹~^ ^

*amanda~~JIA XIN~ haha

*the reason for I reach home late recently=)

the RAINBOW done bychirsti and me=D

*my first time gave to mt! haha..first time eat cup noodle without fork or chopsticks. =P

xianling ask paddy to bring ice cream in the morning...but i ate 2/3 of it =X sorry xl & chirsti...>_<~ (anyway it tastes nice=3)

I will really work hard from now on~fighting! gambatte everyone! jia you=)

Oscar Wilde

2008-11-08T04:39:00.000-08:00

Oscar Wilde

除了安徒生和格林童话，我也很喜欢王尔德所写的童话。《快乐王子》和《自私的巨人》是王尔德童话里我最喜欢的两个。
小时候读这两篇故事的时候并不是完全明白其中的含义，现在每次我读《快乐王子》的时候都会觉得很感动。在燕子的帮助下，快乐王子将他自己身上的宝石全都施舍给穷苦的人们，虽然他们两个沦落到被丢在垃圾堆的悲惨命运，但是他们的灵魂却能够在天堂得到安息。
没有读过《快乐王子》和《自私的巨人》这两篇童话的，一定要读我的Blog..=) (对不起字很小...haha)

除了他所写的童话，他的另外一本书《道林格雷的肖像》(The Picture of Dorian Gray)也让我留下了深刻的印象。
这是一本让我觉得有些恐怖的书...主人公所做的种种，彻底的反映了人性的黑暗。

“Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth.

Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.

A man can be happy with any woman as long as he does not love her.

Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone elses opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.”

——Oscar Wilde

the selfish giant by Oscar Wilde

2008-11-08T04:30:00.000-08:00

From The Happy Prince and Other Tales (1888)

"The Selfish Giant," by Walter Crane, from a 1910 reprint of the 1888 first edition of The Happy Prince And Other Tales.

Every afternoon, as they were coming from school, the children used to go and play in the Giant's garden.
It was a large lovely garden, with soft green grass. Here and there over the grass stood beautiful flowers like stars, and there were twelve peach-trees that in the spring-time broke out into delicate blossoms of pink and pearl, and in the autumn bore rich fruit. The birds sat on the trees and sang so sweetly that the children used to stop their games in order to listen to them. "How happy we are here!" they cried to each other.

One day the Giant came back. He had been to visit his friend the Cornish ogre, and had stayed with him for seven years. After the seven years were over he had said all that he had to say, for his conversation was limited, and he determined to return to his own castle. When he arrived he saw the children playing in the garden.
"What are you doing here?" he cried in a very gruff voice, and the children ran away.
"My own garden is my own garden," said the Giant; "any one can understand that, and I will allow nobody to play in it but myself." So he built a high wall all round it, and put up a notice-board.

TRESPASSERSWILL BEPROSECUTED

He was a very selfish Giant.
The poor children had now nowhere to play. They tried to play on the road, but the road was very dusty and full of hard stones, and they did not like it. They used to wander round the high wall when their lessons were over, and talk about the beautiful garden inside. "How happy we were there," they said to each other.

Then the Spring came, and all over the country there were little blossoms and little birds. Only in the garden of the Selfish Giant it was still winter. The birds did not care to sing in it as there were no children, and the trees forgot to blossom. Once a beautiful flower put its head out from the grass, but when it saw the notice-board it was so sorry for the children that it slipped back into the ground again, and went off to sleep. The only people who were pleased were the Snow and the Frost. "Spring has forgotten this garden," they cried, "so we will live here all the year round." The Snow covered up the grass with her great white cloak, and the Frost painted all the trees silver. Then they invited the North Wind to stay with them, and he came. He was wrapped in furs, and he roared all day about the garden, and blew the chimney-pots down. "This is a delightful spot," he said, "we must ask the Hail on a visit." So the Hail came. Every day for three hours he rattled on the roof of the castle till he broke most of the slates, and then he ran round and round the garden as fast as he could go. He was dressed in grey, and his breath was like ice.
"I cannot understand why the Spring is so late in coming," said the Selfish Giant, as he sat at the window and looked out at his cold white garden; "I hope there will be a change in the weather."
But the Spring never came, nor the Summer. The Autumn gave golden fruit to every garden, but to the Giant's garden she gave none. "He is too selfish," she said. So it was always Winter there, and the North Wind, and the Hail, and the Frost, and the Snow danced about through the trees.

One morning the Giant was lying awake in bed when he heard some lovely music. It sounded so sweet to his ears that he thought it must be the King's musicians passing by. It was really only a little linnet singing outside his window, but it was so long since he had heard a bird sing in his garden that it seemed to him to be the most beautiful music in the world. Then the Hail stopped dancing over his head, and the North Wind ceased roaring, and a delicious perfume came to him through the open casement. "I believe the Spring has come at last," said the Giant; and he jumped out of bed and looked out.

What did he see?
He saw a most wonderful sight. Through a little hole in the wall the children had crept in, and they were sitting in the branches of the trees. In every tree that he could see there was a little child. And the trees were so glad to have the children back again that they had covered themselves with blossoms, and were waving their arms gently above the children's heads. The birds were flying about and twittering with delight, and the flowers were looking up through the green grass and laughing. It was a lovely scene, only in one corner it was still winter. It was the farthest corner of the garden, and in it was standing a little boy. He was so small that he could not reach up to the branches of the tree, and he was wandering all round it, crying bitterly. The poor tree was still quite covered with frost and snow, and the North Wind was blowing and roaring above it. "Climb up! little boy," said the Tree, and it bent its branches down as low as it could; but the boy was too tiny.

And the Giant's heart melted as he looked out. "How selfish I have been!" he said; "now I know why the Spring would not come here. I will put that poor little boy on the top of the tree, and then I will knock down the wall, and my garden shall be the children's playground for ever and ever." He was really very sorry for what he had done.

So he crept downstairs and opened the front door quite softly, and went out into the garden. But when the children saw him they were so frightened that they all ran away, and the garden became winter again. Only the little boy did not run, for his eyes were so full of tears that he did not see the Giant coming. And the Giant stole up behind him and took him gently in his hand, and put him up into the tree. And the tree broke at once into blossom, and the birds came and sang on it, and the little boy stretched out his two arms and flung them round the Giant's neck, and kissed him. And the other children, when they saw that the Giant was not wicked any longer, came running back, and with them came the Spring. "It is your garden now, little children," said the Giant, and he took a great axe and knocked down the wall. And when the people were going to market at twelve o'clock they found the Giant playing with the children in the most beautiful garden they had ever seen.
All day long they played, and in the evening they came to the Giant to bid him good-bye.
"But where is your little companion?" he said: "the boy I put into the tree." The Giant loved him the best because he had kissed him.
"We don't know," answered the children; "he has gone away."
"You must tell him to be sure and come here to-morrow," said the Giant. But the children said that they did not know where he lived, and had never seen him before; and the Giant felt very sad.
Every afternoon, when school was over, the children came and played with the Giant. But the little boy whom the Giant loved was never seen again. The Giant was very kind to all the children, yet he longed for his first little friend, and often spoke of him. "How I would like to see him!" he used to say.

Years went over, and the Giant grew very old and feeble. He could not play about any more, so he sat in a huge armchair, and watched the children at their games, and admired his garden. "I have many beautiful flowers," he said; "but the children are the most beautiful flowers of all."
One winter morning he looked out of his window as he was dressing. He did not hate the Winter now, for he knew that it was merely the Spring asleep, and that the flowers were resting.
Suddenly he rubbed his eyes in wonder, and looked and looked. It certainly was a marvellous sight. In the farthest corner of the garden was a tree quite covered with lovely white blossoms. Its branches were all golden, and silver fruit hung down from them, and underneath it stood the little boy he had loved.
Downstairs ran the Giant in great joy, and out into the garden. He hastened across the grass, and came near to the child. And when he came quite close his face grew red with anger, and he said, "Who hath dared to wound thee?" For on the palms of the child's hands were the prints of two nails, and the prints of two nails were on the little feet.
"Who hath dared to wound thee?" cried the Giant; "tell me, that I may take my big sword and slay him."
"Nay!" answered the child; "but these are the wounds of Love."
"Who art thou?" said the Giant, and a strange awe fell on him, and he knelt before the little child.
And the child smiled on the Giant, and said to him, "You let me play once in your garden, to-day you shall come with me to my garden, which is Paradise."
And when the children ran in that afternoon, they found the Giant lying dead under the tree, all covered with white blossoms.

THE END.

朋友？

2008-11-06T08:23:00.000-08:00

What is a friend? Even though I cannot understand completely, I can feel to depths of my being that we are friends.
The only way to have a good friend is to be one.
An open heart is the shortest path to a true friend...
I know...I am trying my best. (or am I?)
while I think I'm trying my best..I hope u too. But things do not seem to be right at the moment. Is it because I think too much? or just you also don't know what to do?
I am your friend. (Am I ?)
I know who are my friends, who are the people really care and worry me.

after these few months in PID, I feel that Xianling is like a sister to me..Christina and I learned many things from her and she brought joy to us. We will feel lost without her. Christina always able to make me smile and I know she is always there to support me. With Doris around, i can always feel ease. She is someone you can cry in front of her.
Amanda always able to bring laughters to you. I will keep laughing when she is around.
Gaen and junfeng will always give me support and encourage me when I am really sad.
KAMSAHAMNIDA=)
and zui...I know too little about you...i know your friends in are important, but we are your friends too right?

I hope I am a good friend to u all too...sorry if I was not good enough.

06-11-08

2008-11-05T08:22:00.000-08:00

((o(>_<)o)) 最近每天都是很早起来，然后很迟才到家。
sleepy...
最后还是最想画车。可是我能做的到吗？每个人都对我说我可以的...希望真的是这样吧。>_<

this weekends...

2008-11-02T09:45:00.000-08:00

很累...记不清楚这两天到底做了什么。
今天有值得高兴的事，也有让我受到打击的事。戏剧般的人生？haha...
受到打击是因为我的归属感越来越薄弱了。
无论如何，人总是需要归属感的。
虽然现在我又点迷茫，但是我知道我还有另外一个归属感，就是在上帝的国度里。=)

现在这份工作做了也有好几次了。可以说习惯了？但是时常我还会紧张，所以每次我都会祷告。
今天客人都走了，我在收拾桌子时，在我桌子的一位客人回来递给我一张纸，然后又走掉。
本来我以为是垃圾还想要丢掉，结果打开看上面写着鼓励我的话。=)
谢谢你。虽然我不认识你。=)
总觉得那个人是上帝派给我来鼓励我的。

the happy prince by oscar wilde

2008-10-31T19:55:00.000-07:00

From The Happy Prince and Other Tales (1888)

"The Happy Prince," by Walter Crane, from a 1910 reprint of the 1888 first edition of The Happy Prince And Other Tales.

High above the city, on a tall column, stood the statue of the Happy Prince. He was gilded all over with thin leaves of fine gold, for eyes he had two bright sapphires, and a large red ruby glowed on his sword-hilt.

He was very much admired indeed. "He is as beautiful as a weathercock," remarked one of the Town Councillors who wished to gain a reputation for having artistic tastes; "only not quite so useful," he added, fearing lest people should think him unpractical, which he really was not.
"Why can't you be like the Happy Prince?" asked a sensible mother of her little boy who was crying for the moon. "The Happy Prince never dreams of crying for anything."
"I am glad there is some one in the world who is quite happy," muttered a disappointed man as he gazed at the wonderful statue.
"He looks just like an angel," said the Charity Children as they came out of the cathedral in their bright scarlet cloaks and their clean white pinafores.
"How do you know?" said the Mathematical Master, "you have never seen one."
"Ah! but we have, in our dreams," answered the children; and the Mathematical Master frowned and looked very severe, for he did not approve of children dreaming.

One night there flew over the city a little Swallow. His friends had gone away to Egypt six weeks before, but he had stayed behind, for he was in love with the most beautiful Reed. He had met her early in the spring as he was flying down the river after a big yellow moth, and had been so attracted by her slender waist that he had stopped to talk to her.
"Shall I love you?" said the Swallow, who liked to come to the point at once, and the Reed made him a low bow. So he flew round and round her, touching the water with his wings, and making silver ripples. This was his courtship, and it lasted all through the summer.
"It is a ridiculous attachment," twittered the other Swallows; "she has no money, and far too many relations"; and indeed the river was quite full of Reeds. Then, when the autumn came they all flew away.
After they had gone he felt lonely, and began to tire of his lady- love. "She has no conversation," he said, "and I am afraid that she is a coquette, for she is always flirting with the wind." And certainly, whenever the wind blew, the Reed made the most graceful curtseys. "I admit that she is domestic," he continued, "but I love travelling, and my wife, consequently, should love travelling also."
"Will you come away with me?" he said finally to her; but the Reed shook her head, she was so attached to her home.
"You have been trifling with me," he cried. "I am off to the Pyramids. Good-bye!" and he flew away.

All day long he flew, and at night-time he arrived at the city. "Where shall I put up?" he said; "I hope the town has made preparations."
Then he saw the statue on the tall column.
"I will put up there," he cried; "it is a fine position, with plenty of fresh air." So he alighted just between the feet of the Happy Prince.
"I have a golden bedroom," he said softly to himself as he looked round, and he prepared to go to sleep; but just as he was putting his head under his wing a large drop of water fell on him. "What a curious thing!" he cried; "there is not a single cloud in the sky, the stars are quite clear and bright, and yet it is raining. The climate in the north of Europe is really dreadful. The Reed used to like the rain, but that was merely her selfishness."
Then another drop fell.
"What is the use of a statue if it cannot keep the rain off?" he said; "I must look for a good chimney-pot," and he determined to fly away.
But before he had opened his wings, a third drop fell, and he looked up, and saw - Ah! what did he see?
The eyes of the Happy Prince were filled with tears, and tears were running down his golden cheeks. His face was so beautiful in the moonlight that the little Swallow was filled with pity.

"Who are you?" he said.
"I am the Happy Prince."
"Why are you weeping then?" asked the Swallow; "you have quite drenched me."
"When I was alive and had a human heart," answered the statue, "I did not know what tears were, for I lived in the Palace of Sans- Souci, where sorrow is not allowed to enter. In the daytime I played with my companions in the garden, and in the evening I led the dance in the Great Hall. Round the garden ran a very lofty wall, but I never cared to ask what lay beyond it, everything about me was so beautiful. My courtiers called me the Happy Prince, and happy indeed I was, if pleasure be happiness. So I lived, and so I died. And now that I am dead they have set me up here so high that I can see all the ugliness and all the misery of my city, and though my heart is made of lead yet I cannot chose but weep."
"What! is he not solid gold?" said the Swallow to himself. He was too polite to make any personal remarks out loud.

"Far away," continued the statue in a low musical voice, "far away in a little street there is a poor house. One of the windows is open, and through it I can see a woman seated at a table. Her face is thin and worn, and she has coarse, red hands, all pricked by the needle, for she is a seamstress. She is embroidering passion- flowers on a satin gown for the loveliest of the Queen's maids-of- honour to wear at the next Court-ball. In a bed in the corner of the room her little boy is lying ill. He has a fever, and is asking for oranges. His mother has nothing to give him but river water, so he is crying. Swallow, Swallow, little Swallow, will you not bring her the ruby out of my sword-hilt? My feet are fastened to this pedestal and I cannot move."
"I am waited for in Egypt," said the Swallow. "My friends are flying up and down the Nile, and talking to the large lotus- flowers. Soon they will go to sleep in the tomb of the great King. The King is there himself in his painted coffin. He is wrapped in yellow linen, and embalmed with spices. Round his neck is a chain of pale green jade, and his hands are like withered leaves."
"Swallow, Swallow, little Swallow," said the Prince, "will you not stay with me for one night, and be my messenger? The boy is so thirsty, and the mother so sad."
"I don't think I like boys," answered the Swallow. "Last summer, when I was staying on the river, there were two rude boys, the miller's sons, who were always throwing stones at me. They never hit me, of course; we swallows fly far too well for that, and besides, I come of a family famous for its agility; but still, it was a mark of disrespect."
But the Happy Prince looked so sad that the little Swallow was sorry. "It is very cold here," he said; "but I will stay with you for one night, and be your messenger."
"Thank you, little Swallow," said the Prince.
So the Swallow picked out the great ruby from the Prince's sword, and flew away with it in his beak over the roofs of the town.
He passed by the cathedral tower, where the white marble angels were sculptured. He passed by the palace and heard the sound of dancing. A beautiful girl came out on the balcony with her lover. "How wonderful the stars are," he said to her, "and how wonderful is the power of love!"
"I hope my dress will be ready in time for the State-ball," she answered; "I have ordered passion-flowers to be embroidered on it; but the seamstresses are so lazy."
He passed over the river, and saw the lanterns hanging to the masts of the ships. He passed over the Ghetto, and saw the old Jews bargaining with each other, and weighing out money in copper scales. At last he came to the poor house and looked in. The boy was tossing feverishly on his bed, and the mother had fallen asleep, she was so tired. In he hopped, and laid the great ruby on the table beside the woman's thimble. Then he flew gently round the bed, fanning the boy's forehead with his wings. "How cool I feel," said the boy, "I must be getting better"; and he sank into a delicious slumber.
Then the Swallow flew back to the Happy Prince, and told him what he had done. "It is curious," he remarked, "but I feel quite warm now, although it is so cold."
"That is because you have done a good action," said the Prince. And the little Swallow began to think, and then he fell asleep. Thinking always made him sleepy.

When day broke he flew down to the river and had a bath. "What a remarkable phenomenon," said the Professor of Ornithology as he was passing over the bridge. "A swallow in winter!" And he wrote a long letter about it to the local newspaper. Every one quoted it, it was full of so many words that they could not understand.
"To-night I go to Egypt," said the Swallow, and he was in high spirits at the prospect. He visited all the public monuments, and sat a long time on top of the church steeple. Wherever he went the Sparrows chirruped, and said to each other, "What a distinguished stranger!" so he enjoyed himself very much.
When the moon rose he flew back to the Happy Prince. "Have you any commissions for Egypt?" he cried; "I am just starting."
"Swallow, Swallow, little Swallow," said the Prince, "will you not stay with me one night longer?"
"I am waited for in Egypt," answered the Swallow. "To-morrow my friends will fly up to the Second Cataract. The river-horse couches there among the bulrushes, and on a great granite throne sits the God Memnon. All night long he watches the stars, and when the morning star shines he utters one cry of joy, and then he is silent. At noon the yellow lions come down to the water's edge to drink. They have eyes like green beryls, and their roar is louder than the roar of the cataract.

"Swallow, Swallow, little Swallow," said the Prince, "far away across the city I see a young man in a garret. He is leaning over a desk covered with papers, and in a tumbler by his side there is a bunch of withered violets. His hair is brown and crisp, and his lips are red as a pomegranate, and he has large and dreamy eyes. He is trying to finish a play for the Director of the Theatre, but he is too cold to write any more. There is no fire in the grate, and hunger has made him faint."
"I will wait with you one night longer," said the Swallow, who really had a good heart. "Shall I take him another ruby?"
"Alas! I have no ruby now," said the Prince; "my eyes are all that I have left. They are made of rare sapphires, which were brought out of India a thousand years ago. Pluck out one of them and take it to him. He will sell it to the jeweller, and buy food and firewood, and finish his play."
"Dear Prince," said the Swallow, "I cannot do that"; and he began to weep.
"Swallow, Swallow, little Swallow," said the Prince, "do as I command you."
So the Swallow plucked out the Prince's eye, and flew away to the student's garret. It was easy enough to get in, as there was a hole in the roof. Through this he darted, and came into the room. The young man had his head buried in his hands, so he did not hear the flutter of the bird's wings, and when he looked up he found the beautiful sapphire lying on the withered violets.
"I am beginning to be appreciated," he cried; "this is from some great admirer. Now I can finish my play," and he looked quite happy.
The next day the Swallow flew down to the harbour. He sat on the mast of a large vessel and watched the sailors hauling big chests out of the hold with ropes. "Heave a-hoy!" they shouted as each chest came up. "I am going to Egypt"! cried the Swallow, but nobody minded, and when the moon rose he flew back to the Happy Prince.

"I am come to bid you good-bye," he cried.
"Swallow, Swallow, little Swallow," said the Prince, "will you not stay with me one night longer?"
"It is winter," answered the Swallow, "and the chill snow will soon be here. In Egypt the sun is warm on the green palm-trees, and the crocodiles lie in the mud and look lazily about them. My companions are building a nest in the Temple of Baalbec, and the pink and white doves are watching them, and cooing to each other. Dear Prince, I must leave you, but I will never forget you, and next spring I will bring you back two beautiful jewels in place of those you have given away. The ruby shall be redder than a red rose, and the sapphire shall be as blue as the great sea."
"In the square below," said the Happy Prince, "there stands a little match-girl. She has let her matches fall in the gutter, and they are all spoiled. Her father will beat her if she does not bring home some money, and she is crying. She has no shoes or stockings, and her little head is bare. Pluck out my other eye, and give it to her, and her father will not beat her."
"I will stay with you one night longer," said the Swallow, "but I cannot pluck out your eye. You would be quite blind then."
"Swallow, Swallow, little Swallow," said the Prince, "do as I command you."
So he plucked out the Prince's other eye, and darted down with it. He swooped past the match-girl, and slipped the jewel into the palm of her hand. "What a lovely bit of glass," cried the little girl; and she ran home, laughing.

Then the Swallow came back to the Prince. "You are blind now," he said, "so I will stay with you always."
"No, little Swallow," said the poor Prince, "you must go away to Egypt."
"I will stay with you always," said the Swallow, and he slept at the Prince's feet.
All the next day he sat on the Prince's shoulder, and told him stories of what he had seen in strange lands.
He told him of the red ibises, who stand in long rows on the banks of the Nile, and catch gold-fish in their beaks; of the Sphinx, who is as old as the world itself, and lives in the desert, and knows everything; of the merchants, who walk slowly by the side of their camels, and carry amber beads in their hands; of the King of the Mountains of the Moon, who is as black as ebony, and worships a large crystal; of the great green snake that sleeps in a palm-tree, and has twenty priests to feed it with honey-cakes; and of the pygmies who sail over a big lake on large flat leaves, and are always at war with the butterflies.
"Dear little Swallow," said the Prince, "you tell me of marvellous things, but more marvellous than anything is the suffering of men and of women. There is no Mystery so great as Misery. Fly over my city, little Swallow, and tell me what you see there."
So the Swallow flew over the great city, and saw the rich making merry in their beautiful houses, while the beggars were sitting at the gates. He flew into dark lanes, and saw the white faces of starving children looking out listlessly at the black streets. Under the archway of a bridge two little boys were lying in one another's arms to try and keep themselves warm. "How hungry we are!" they said. "You must not lie here," shouted the Watchman, and they wandered out into the rain.
Then he flew back and told the Prince what he had seen.
"I am covered with fine gold," said the Prince, "you must take it off, leaf by leaf, and give it to my poor; the living always think that gold can make them happy."
Leaf after leaf of the fine gold the Swallow picked off, till the Happy Prince looked quite dull and grey. Leaf after leaf of the fine gold he brought to the poor, and the children's faces grew rosier, and they laughed and played games in the street. "We have bread now!" they cried.

Then the snow came, and after the snow came the frost. The streets looked as if they were made of silver, they were so bright and glistening; long icicles like crystal daggers hung down from the eaves of the houses, everybody went about in furs, and the little boys wore scarlet caps and skated on the ice.
The poor little Swallow grew colder and colder, but he would not leave the Prince, he loved him too well. He picked up crumbs outside the baker's door when the baker was not looking and tried to keep himself warm by flapping his wings.
But at last he knew that he was going to die. He had just strength to fly up to the Prince's shoulder once more. "Good-bye, dear Prince!" he murmured, "will you let me kiss your hand?"
"I am glad that you are going to Egypt at last, little Swallow," said the Prince, "you have stayed too long here; but you must kiss me on the lips, for I love you."
"It is not to Egypt that I am going," said the Swallow. "I am going to the House of Death. Death is the brother of Sleep, is he not?"
And he kissed the Happy Prince on the lips, and fell down dead at his feet.
At that moment a curious crack sounded inside the statue, as if something had broken. The fact is that the leaden heart had snapped right in two. It certainly was a dreadfully hard frost.

Early the next morning the Mayor was walking in the square below in company with the Town Councillors. As they passed the column he looked up at the statue: "Dear me! how shabby the Happy Prince looks!" he said.
"How shabby indeed!" cried the Town Councillors, who always agreed with the Mayor; and they went up to look at it.
"The ruby has fallen out of his sword, his eyes are gone, and he is golden no longer," said the Mayor in fact, "he is litttle beter than a beggar!"
"Little better than a beggar," said the Town Councillors.
"And here is actually a dead bird at his feet!" continued the Mayor. "We must really issue a proclamation that birds are not to be allowed to die here." And the Town Clerk made a note of the suggestion.
So they pulled down the statue of the Happy Prince. "As he is no longer beautiful he is no longer useful," said the Art Professor at the University.
Then they melted the statue in a furnace, and the Mayor held a meeting of the Corporation to decide what was to be done with the metal. "We must have another statue, of course," he said, "and it shall be a statue of myself."
"Of myself," said each of the Town Councillors, and they quarrelled. When I last heard of them they were quarrelling still.
"What a strange thing!" said the overseer of the workmen at the foundry. "This broken lead heart will not melt in the furnace. We must throw it away." So they threw it on a dust-heap where the dead Swallow was also lying.

"Bring me the two most precious things in the city," said God to one of His Angels; and the Angel brought Him the leaden heart and the dead bird.
"You have rightly chosen," said God, "for in my garden of Paradise this little bird shall sing for evermore, and in my city of gold the Happy Prince shall praise me."

THE END.

累了。

2008-10-31T19:24:00.000-07:00

xianling对不起，说好了早到学校，结果每天让你一个人等我。

现在下着雨。等一下我要去做工...不想去
　　大家因该在学校了吧？加油!
　　有点担心...
　　他们还在吵架。我很怕...>_<

more about me? =3

2008-10-31T17:57:00.000-07:00

did this quiz from momo's blog.

hmm...is it true? i choose this monster just because it's white and it's a rabbit=0

haha...

What My Monster Says About Me:

You are a simply happy person. You still view the world with a childlike innocence.

You have an easy going attitude, and you value harmony. You love freely and inspire others to love.

You inner demon is frailty. You are easily beaten down by life.

People think you're cute because you are optimistic. Your outlook on life is charming.

The Cute Monster Test

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and am a fish?

err...i dont really mind but i also dont think i am really a fish

P.S. is it a dory fish? xDD

You Would Be A Pet Fish...

Relaxed and laid back, you prefer to sit back and observe what's going on around you.

You are secretly very wise and intelligent, but few people take the time to learn about you.

You don't mind if the world doesn't understand you. You're having enough fun trying to understand the world.

Why you would make a great pet: You're peaceful and nice to be around, but not very demanding

Why you would make a bad pet: Let's face it... the only person you're truly interesting to is yourself

What you would love about being a fish: Swimming around aimlessly without a care in the world

What you would hate about being a fish: Being used as bait or food for bigger fish

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

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You Are the Daughter

You very keyed in to emotions. You care deeply and are quick to forgive others.

You often get lost in your own thoughts and daydreams. You find it difficult to stay focused.

At your best, you are sweet, sensitive, and innocent. You bring joy to people's lives.

You are open and expressive. You love sharing your optimistic, dreamy vision of the world.

At your worst, you feel powerless and like a victim. Your fear can paralyze you.

You tend to complain and whine. Whether your complaints are legitimate or not, you're not one to solve your own problems.

What Family Role Do You Play?

at least this quiz is quite true for certain parts.

i feel l'm useless sometimes =X

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昨天晚上一直睡不着。因为他们又吵架了。我躺在客厅里虽然睡着了，但是很多次都被他们吵架的生音吵醒。(大人吵架的时候真的很恐怖。而且还是在我的房间。>_<) 不敢跟妈妈讲话...因为她每次吵完架都会很凶。希望今天我不要做错任何事，再让她生气。>_<~

beethoven virus

2008-10-31T08:27:00.000-07:00

베토벤 바이러스 Beethoven Virus

最近所喜欢的韩剧。=DDD

classic music ROX haha...

看着故事里的每一个人为了所热爱的音乐而努力，虽然他们不是最好的，但是他们认真、努力的精神，却很让人感动...是一部很好看的韩剧~ o(^ ^)o~

the orchestra conductor...

the violinist...

the trumpet player...

Kang Gun Woo is an orchestra conductor in his 40's. He is an elite workaholic conductor who has a very bad reputation. He is known as someone who will do absolutely anything in order to create the very best music. However, due to his self-righteous and stubborn personality he thinks that only his thoughts are correct which makes him unable to form good relationships with those around him. He meets Du Ru Mi, a violinist, and a trumpet player who has the same name as him, and together they form a love triangle. (from: Dramawiki)

P.S. Doris..i think u will love this drama too =3

2008-10-30T05:28:00.000-07:00

D'=
讨厌...>_< 今天我又睡过头了。T T~ 本来要把sushi拿给lihui的，可是我却睡过头，7点多才醒来。
对不起，lihui。
我只是想为朋友做一点事...因为大家都很忙，很难见一次面，所以我只是想尽我的能力帮她庆祝生日。
结果我做不到。
答应了别人，结果我没办法做到。
i thought i can, i thought i can do things for my friends to make them happier...but the truth is i can't.
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=D

2008-10-28T04:21:00.000-07:00

我很好。
刘若英的歌。好听。=) haha=)
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i really feel that when xianling and chirstina are ur friends..u will keep laughing and smiling everyday.xD even...when u are sad
i also just found out that doris + amanda= laughters? haha..xD
anyway i feel very happy when i with them=)
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many many thx to xianxian, samantha, momo, xianling, chirstina, amanda, gaen
thanku very very much for the every single thing u all did for me.

what am i still expecting of? when i know they are support me here as my friends. why am i still feeling sad? when i know they are really care about me.
why...am i still feel like crying when i know God loves me.

i actually thought of take bus 72 with doris and junfeng today..but..hmm..nvm..xDD...i took bus 27 with munting, shufen & sinmei instead..haha=)
they keep talking abt..=X (haha..not suppose to say? =)
and saw doris at hougang again when i was waiting for bus 112.=D
so happy~

momo& kunzite's visit=)

2008-10-27T03:05:00.000-07:00

hehee...今天和momo一起在hougang mall吃的午餐。xDD

他们俩个(momo & kunzite)今天来看我。^ ^

好久没有看到kunzite 了!!很想他...

kunzite: miss u too=)

me: =DDDD~
momo: (melts~)*
haha....

hmm...我和Kunzite被momo偷拍。>_<
kunzite 和我的兔子还有羊羊似乎相处得很好...=3 至少看起来是这样。=3

20？hmm..ya..it's my birthday..u r so sweet kunzite...xDDD

kun: =3

want to c more pics of him? http://www.thegemchild.blogspot.com/ =3

''forget the former things, do not dwell on the past''

2008-10-26T10:46:00.000-07:00

God tells us to forget about the former things and do not dwell on the past.

But sometimes we forgot the wrong things.

Instead of remember those who once helped us, gave us hope and courage when we needed, we remember those who hurted us, betrayed us, those painful memory of the past.

God wants us to forget the past.

He wants us to love our enemy, love people who hurted us before.

because the pain can only leads to anger, anger leads to hatred, and hatred leads to bitterness.

we have to forgive, forget, and LOVE the people who hurted us. that's the only way to obtain true happiness in our life.

and don't always feel unsatistified with yourself.

God wants to tell you: you are precious, you are wonderfully made by him; you are honored in his sight, because he loves you.

what should i do??hmm...

2008-10-25T08:55:00.000-07:00

下个星期是lihui的生日。xDD
不知道她有没有空...好久没有见到她了。>_< SLEEPY....i want to sleep...i dont want to work tomorrow...but i have to...i have no choice... sorry... about today...
=))

another happy day? =3

2008-10-24T08:25:00.000-07:00

christina 和munting今天过生日，我突然觉得大家都是很好的人。=)

晚上和大家一起在学校对面吃了晚餐，然后和christina 还有xianling去打羽毛球~ xDD
在路上xianling试着抓里面那个黄色的饺子(很可爱~o(>_<)o...haha)然后送给christina做生日礼物。可是试了两次都没有成功，差一点点xl就抓到了。好可惜...=)
因为今天实在是太困了，所以我先早回家。对不起christina & xianling...>_<

明天和xl& christi去library做功课。^ ^

(本来因该去做工的，但是...我打电话给nurul说我不要去了。=X )

>_<~

2008-10-23T19:47:00.000-07:00

I feel so tired and sad now.
To Christina: you are really lucky didn’t go work today.
我很后悔今天来去做工，因为今天我带给很多人麻烦。o(>_<)o让我觉得自己是一个很没有用的人。=X 今天和往常不太一样，7点到了那里，我完全被接下来发生的事吓倒。不要问我发生什么事，我现在只觉得非常丢脸，整个晚上都想盖住我的脸或者是藏起来不要让别人看到我。

当我知道今天晚上我们要做的事以后，我真的很想哭…也在想能不能告诉Nurul今天晚上我真的不想做。但是我又告诉自己要加油，在别人面前为这种事哭(我觉得很丢脸).... 总而言之，整个晚上对我来说是一种折磨。就算下一次一个小时$9，我也不要做了。

T.T~
今天一直麻烦我刚认识的一个朋友。>_<~ 她教了我很多的东西。She is such a nice girl…o(>_<)o 感谢上帝虽然今天我碰到很多问题，但总是有好心的人帮我。谢谢你们。 o(> <)o

omg..i really feel like to sleep..but i can't sleep now..have more important thing to do. >_< HAPPY BIRTHDAY to christi and mt

xinyi~

2008-10-22T06:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 老公~ xDD
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明天是你的生日，对不起不能在你身边。>_< 我们已经好久没有见面了...很想念你，很想念liying,很想念vivien, 很想念我们曾在一起的那段日子。

总有一天我们还能见到彼此的!!对吗?? ~

因为明天我要去做工，所以今天先祝你生日快乐。o(>_<)o

P.S. vivien 说她有时会看我们几个人的blog...你呢?...=3

happy birthday 生日快乐

2008-10-21T08:15:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD...

吃饭时的你；烦恼时的你；快乐时的你；睡觉时的你

虽然今天是你的生日，但是我可不可以许一个愿望?

希望你能认识上帝，希望你能戒烟，希望你能每天都快乐。

=DDD

holiday is over!

2008-10-20T08:12:00.000-07:00

first day..first lesson.=DD

done by xl & me~ahahaha~

^ ^V~

went bugis street with xianling, gaen & jf...for amanda's birthday present=)

P.S...dont cry amanda~smile~keep smiling, always smile~and smile again.xDD

another meaningful day=)

2008-10-19T11:11:00.000-07:00

God sent His son, they called Him, Jesus
He came to love, heal and forgive;
He lived and died to buy my pardon,
An empty grave is there to prove my Savior lives!
And then one day, I'll cross the river,
I'll fight life's final war with pain;
And then, as death gives way to victory,

I'll see the lights of glory and I'll know He lives!
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness.
Opened my eyes, let me see.
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You
King of all daysoh, so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that
You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me

my mom & i were crying when we sing these songs at church today...because it's so true."Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,Because He lives, all fear is gone;Because I know He holds the future,And life is worth the living,Just because He lives!"

what i have learned in church today:
Be faithul in all things
we have to work with diligence and passion, always do my best and be responsible. Serve whole heartly as we serve the lord, not the men.
the only way to succeed in our life: believe in God.

kunzite!!XD

2008-10-19T11:01:00.000-07:00

my brother ♥♥

pic took by his mom=3

^ ^@work

2008-10-19T10:42:00.000-07:00

hmm~=D

最近这几天虽然很辛苦，但是也总算习惯了这里的工作。^ ^V

aza aza fighting christi!! & me...haha~

pic on the right: 我拍到christi跳舞的照片~ahahahaXD

on the left:有的时候我们会偷吃一点点那里多余剩下的食物。XP

work...=O

2008-10-14T11:12:00.000-07:00

好累。>_<

还好能和christina一起做。如果是我一个人，真的不知道要做些什么。=X

以后每天晚上都要1:30才能到家。T T
虽然是我自己去，可是妈妈因为担心我，每天晚上在我回家前都睡不着，一定要等我回来。对不起....>_< 让你担心了。

只是工作了两天，就开始觉得有点空虚了...=X

D=....busy..

2008-10-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

本来以为这个星期因该没有位了，结果除了星期六以外，每天都要去做工。o(>_<)o hmm...没关系，等开学以后可能没有时间再去打工了，就趁假期的最后一个星期多做一点吧... aza aza fighting!!~

今天早上去了学校和doris一起准备...=X
XD
然后去机场接jh...~ 一天又很快地过去了。

P.S. sorry..xianxian & marcus..for not going our chalet..enjoy your time there. o(>_<)o
P.P.S. !!!!!kun finally has a face !!!XD

a happy day?? beause...=DDDDDD

=DDDRAMA

2008-10-12T06:53:00.000-07:00

对不起!!=X 又看了很多的...o(>_<)o

让我觉得温馨和感动的: =DD
1.Papa to Musume no Nanokakan

''it’s not winners who are the greatest. It’s those who try their best, and fight on with all their might, they are the greatest.''

''To be with someone you love, who loves you back. It’s not an easy thing. So I think that’s called a miracle. But the miracle…will only happen if you’re always praying for his happiness.''

2.Three Dads one Mom

3. Nobuta wo produce

''Before you were fine with being alone…but now being alone is too lonely isn’t it? And you go crazy buying magazines and CDs to pass the time by yourself at night…But it’s still just too lonely.. that’s love.''

''Inside other’s heart ...is way beyond my imagination.''

Have you ever gone a place and regretted it?
Yeah, I have.
You came back by yourself?
No. I came back with friends!!
It’s my friends who brought me back. =D

hmm...让我深思的：=DDD
1. Code Blue

''People cannot live on unless they are needed by other people. That’s why everyone works so hard. For their studies, their jobs. In order to become a person who is needed by someone else.''

2. Haken no Hinkaku

''If you ran away once, you will have to keep running for the rest of your life.''

让我觉得熟悉的?? : =DD
Hotaru No Hikari

''If one lets out all these feelings but isn’t accepted, it will remain in the heart as a horrible wound. But even if it’s a horrible experience, it’s better than nothing right? You fell in love with somebody right? Treasure that feeling. Treasure yourself for being able to love somebody. Feelings cannot be able to understand till spoken.''

''It’s a good thing...Isn’t it? To worry over love means you intend to cherish that love. It’s right to worry all you want . ''

''I heard that there are things that can’t be overcome just by loving someone. I want to know more about you, and I want you know more about me. And if there’s something about me that you can’t accept, tell me. If there’s something that you can’t overcome, tell me. I’ll really work hard. It should be alright, right? If it’s just the two of us. ''

''I wanted you to rely on me. From now on, I want you to rely on me more. It’ll be okay , if it’s the two of us. ''

总觉得，Amemiya的个性是 40%Akatsuki, 20%的我, 15%的momo,15%liting & 10%xianxain=D..haha~我想太多了...XD

心灵的良药~对他的信心

2008-10-12T04:53:00.000-07:00

最近总是在担心一些事，害怕一些事，总是牵挂着一些事... ...
o(>_<)o~

昨天晚上第一次去mm hotel 打工。去之前，总是在想，我到底能不能做好，第一次去，我怕会迟到，怕找不到地方。到了那里，我又很担心我到底能不能胜任那里的工作，习惯那里的环境，有没有办法认识新的朋友。
11:30pm。终于可以回家了。我已经很久没有去过谁的婚礼了，也因为第一次做banquet,所以一切对我来说，还是有新鲜感的。只是，还是很担心会摔碎东西。o(>_<)o (真的很重...)

和nelson在mrt分头后，本来我以为51号的车站很容易就看得到，结果我花了30分钟才找到...因为已经午夜的关系，想问人也没有办法，周围一个人也没有。虽然赶得上最后一躺车，但是到了hougang时，已经1:00am了...我只好走回家。还好有christina打电话陪我，不然，这么晚一个人走路，真的是有点害怕。

虽然很累，不过我今天算是很顺利了。
出门前，妈妈准备了好吃的东西，让我加油，也帮我祷告。
还有，没有想到做工的时候，竟然碰到yifieng~~ =D 好久没见到她了~自从中3分班了以后，就很少碰面了，没想到我第一天在这里工作，能碰到她XDDD。Yifeng是负责VIP的...O.O 她真的很厉害...我还有很多要学习的地方。((o(>_<)o))

还有，
今天我在教会学到了很重要的一件事。T T
There is no need to worry when you can pray.
because if you are worry, it means you don't really trust, believe in god. It means you dont believe that god will take care of everything for you, that's why you are still worry.
TT.TT~ 之前我为什么要顾虑那么多呢...既然我说我相信上帝，但是我却没有信心。
相信上帝，信靠他，自然也是包括要有信心。
我还做得很不够。
aza, aza fighting!!
유감스러운...o(>_<)o

useless...useless...=(

2008-10-09T09:32:00.001-07:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhh...........
除了讲对不起，你还能做什么??
christina说的对，妈妈也说得对... ...
你总是不能为你的朋友做任何事，也总是不能改正自己。
虽然你知道上帝说过这样做是不对的，你依然继续做...
李蓥杉...你除了哭还有一直讲对不起以外, 你还会做什么呢?

对了...还有给别人带来麻烦&撒谎。=(

='(

p.s. 谢谢christi..marcus..& gaen.谢谢你们的鼓励。

my invitation from the future~

2008-10-05T05:08:00.000-07:00

INVITATION by Shibasaki Kou柴咲コウ
i really like this song..sing by one of my fav japanese actress^ ^~ hope you enjoy this song as much as i do~

假期的计划：
♥ 早上起来~ 弹至少40分钟的琴。
♥ 然后...一定要吃早餐!! o(>_<)o~ 之后：
♥ 学习时间!!!
。读Bible♥
。学习新的诗篇
。English vocab
。HAN GLE!! 韩语♥
♥ 读书时间~：
。classic books♥
♥ erm..然后...吹笛子&口琴。T T 虽然我一点也不想吹笛子...可是我知道有一个人如果知道我有练习的话，一定会很高兴的...所以...fighting!! o(T.T)o
♥ 接下来...画画时间：
。finish my painting...& sketches♥
♥ 最后晚上去游泳~
♥ end of day: drama/movie time!! =D

那么...再见吧~안녕~
♥ my inviation from future ~end~

korean food

2008-10-04T03:36:00.001-07:00

I went shopping with my mom today..bought a skirt(for my work..) then went Korean restaurant to eat!! =D

i love kimchi~

ICE CREAM~~o(>_<)o~

P.S. i want to try ...next time..=3

P.P.S. omg..i can blog 3/4 times per day...T T 我真的有那么空虚吗??..haha

04-10-08 finally~

2008-10-03T21:54:00.000-07:00

我因该高兴吗?等一下我要去吃韩国料理~
可是...
不是和家人一起去。　
最后一次一家人在一起吃饭是什么时候呢？现在连这种很平凡的幸福，也变得很难得了。

i'm sorry...mom...for neglecting you these days.
but is it true that we can't live without love? is it true that the love from me is not enough for you? i know..from a long time ago you dont love dad anyomore; i also know that dad doesnt love you now.
it took so many years for me to finally admit this fact.

HAHA...ignore what i said above =) anyway...going Korean restaurant later!!! o(>_<)o~yummy~(start to imagine the food..hahaXD)

kamsahamnida X 100

2008-10-03T19:51:00.000-07:00

=DDDDDD...
omg..i'm so happy...=) because of u, u, u & u. XD
海内存知己，天涯若比邻。
同声自相应，同心自相知。
你们将我的快乐加倍，把我的悲伤减半。

名誉，美酒，爱情，都不及可以让我感到幸福的友情更珍惜。－－赫尔曼.黑塞
而我是真心的，这么觉得。

P.S. to my dear friends: momo,christi & doris. i will smile for u. i will stop crying because of u...然后，让你们看到我最灿烂的微笑。=)
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=3 more dramas~

2008-10-03T05:57:00.000-07:00

最近在看得两部日剧~Detective Galileoガリレオ & Lunch Queenランチの女王.
是我所喜欢的柴咲コウ(Galileo)和竹内結子(lunch queen)主演的~^ ^

Detective Galileo:

Galileo ending:

我很喜欢结尾的歌~ =D
KOH+ Kiss shite KISSして (Galileo theme)
sing by 柴咲コウ (the rookie cop in Galileo)& 福山雅治playing the guitar(the "Detective Galileo" in the drama)=D

lunch queen:

是一部很温馨，让人感动的日剧(2002)~

"if you have never eat while crying before, then you are not able to know the taste of life ."
——Goethe
=D

P.S. i want to eat Omelette rice too!!!! o(>_<)o~

02-10-08

2008-10-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

今天晚上8点多到家。
听得出来，她对我很失望。兔子...也是对我很失望吧。
我自己也是这么觉得。
刚才又做了愚蠢的事...为什么我总是什么事都做不好呢?

liar game=D

2008-10-01T07:42:00.000-07:00

【LIAR GAME】オープニングのみ intro

今天看完了liar game~~ =D (the ending is nice!)

The fourth round of Liar Game?
It might have started already…
This world..is same as the Liar Game right?

Shinichi: You’re tricked by children too? ...
You are so stupid honest, that’s why you are so easy to be tricked.
Nao: Is it bad to be stupidly honest?
Shinichi: I think…it’s okay.
Nao: =D
Shinichi: =)

~THE END~

P.S. happy birthday! vivien=D

fighting!!!!!

2008-10-01T00:27:00.000-07:00

我的假期...
我不想让我的假期就这样过去!! o(T T)o为什么我总是没办法按照自己的计划来做事情呢...总是对自己说，以后，我每天都要做这样那样的事，可是最后总是以失败而告终。
ahhhhhhhhhhhh.....fighting! gambatte! i cannot give up...=)
as long as i continue believe in god..everything will be fine, everyday will be a fine day.

P.S. i think am just those kind of ppl like what my mom says. so the reason i feel it's irritating is not because of my mom's lecture, but is because i realised the truth...
OMG....i just realised i have so many things need to do...how..i dont think i can finish all..T T

30-09-08

2008-09-30T23:42:00.000-07:00

hmm...这两天发生了很多事...

也许是因为这样，我昨天总共睡了12个小时。=P

昨天早上我们去了机场送jh...bon voyage~jh~ =D

然后我和xianling一起去看飞机。=)

xianling带的书，总觉得，这本书的名字也可以改成“读着读着就哭了”。haha...是一本幸福却带着一层的忧伤的书。

(xl 不要难过...fighting！=D)

大家一起去面试，结果只有包括我，4个人真的去面试。有的时候，不管结果怎样，还是因该去尝试一下吧。

xianling对小孩子的鞋很感兴趣...haha...好像nelson也是。XP

xianling, doris, munting, nelson, jason, junfeng, jamie, paddy, leonard,kenneth...hmm..好像就是这么多人吧...

昨天7:20pm 到家。=)

P.S. results is out yesterday...wahahahahaha. T.T

我们都是悲哀的傻瓜...

2008-09-29T07:40:00.000-07:00

I was crying when i watching Liar Game today...
Nao...u are idiot..为什么一直被人欺骗，让自己受到伤害。 Shinichi...u are a idiot...为了报仇变成自己最讨厌的骗子。
haha..yingshan...u are a idiot too..。
smile~after u cry=) even if the wound is still there...

29-09-08...another rainning day...

2008-09-29T01:44:00.000-07:00

今天早上起来，天气很好，阳光很明媚。
只睡了5个小时，我勉强爬起来，去学校。很希望下雨...
在学校打完球，决定一个人先回家。没想到真的下雨了...

我坐在车上，听着音乐，看着车窗外忽大忽小的雨。
旁边坐的学生，睡着了倒在一边；我一直和christina sms 讲着一些无聊的话；雨不断的打着车窗...突然很希望这时兔子坐在我身边=)

我很想念兔子和小雨...='(
对不起。这7年来，都没办法陪你们过生日。

yo~happy birthday~oct

2008-09-28T00:55:00.000-07:00

haha...10月转眼间就到了。=)
好多人的生日在10 月...
happy birthday~1 0ct vivien, 生日快乐~7 oct shufen, 축 생일~19 oct amanda, 誕生日おめでとう~21 oct 兔子的生日!! =D, joyeux anniversaire~23 oct 老公，alles Gute zum Geburtstag~24 oct christi & munting，gelukkige verjaardag~27 oct jason, feliz cumpleaños~29 oct lihui, buon compleanno~31 oct jinghui.
虽然还没到...我先说声happy birthday,축 생일=D

update! update pls...T T

2008-09-28T00:26:00.000-07:00

我已经很久没读manga了...可是昨天去看，还是update很慢。
o(> <)o 可以快一点吗? fullmetal alchemist....nana....liar game...

昨天无意找到下面这张...haha..XD
* 1st lesson: how to earn money for masters.

haha..i kept laughing..so cute...

心情の写真

2008-09-27T06:35:00.000-07:00

这是我的第332个post了吧... ...

最近，我越来越少些日记了。=)我的日记本...被我丢在了一旁。

可是有的时候，有些话没办法说出来，又不能放在心里，所以还是要写日记。（笑~）

今天读了Gina的blog以后，觉得...我真很愚蠢。haha~

人生，不就是如此嘛。=)

总之，现在对我来说最幸福的事，就是每天晚上帮朋友们画画。=3

每当我把我自己画的画送给朋友们，他们对我说的感谢，是我幸福的来源。我的满足感，还有我的快乐。我相信这是上帝给我的恩赐。=D

我想...成为一个能带给别人快乐的画家=D

我想做一个像爷爷和大伯一样的画家=) 当我过完这3年...我很想到国外去读fine arts. 成为一真正的画家. 虽然我有点担心，像我这样的人，能不能够坚持到底呢...haha

hmm~就写到这里吧，我还要继续画我的画，还有...=3

happy birthday~marcus=D

2008-09-27T01:12:00.000-07:00

今天我们7个人在日本村庆祝marcus的生日..haha~可惜xinjie没办法来..=(

我们7 个人玩终极密码~我只被罚一次而已~haha~(可是在lemon上加wasabi的味道真的很...the taste is 'wonderful'~@_@...) XD

P.S. sorry~momo& sam~本来因该去city hall找你们的~

27-09-08

2008-09-27T00:46:00.000-07:00

昨天早上在下雨...我一边躺在床上，一边看雨...=)

傍晚时分，阳光很好~

晚上从church的小组回来以后，突然想起还没有开始给marcus画他的L~~=0

2am...终于画完了=3 msn里好像只有doris还在online。

---〉chalet=)

2008-09-27T00:27:00.000-07:00

然后，我和christi在车站等xianling，一起去chalet...=)

xianling & christina 两个人在bus上面...疯掉了XD~haha~

接着...就到了chalet=)因为没有征求她们的同意，所以就只放这两张吧~haha~猜得到是谁吗?=D

hmm...那么我就在谢谢大家多一次吧...kamsahamnida=3, 那天晚上麻烦各位了。=)

@honey's house=3

2008-09-26T23:54:00.000-07:00

去chalet之前，我先去了Christi的家。=3
她的fifi真的很可爱~haha~ 但是我还有点怕她的狗...所以所有的照片都是在1m以外的范围内拍的。=D
可是christina一直跟别人讲我吃掉她的狗。T T...我有那么恐怖吗?? haha=)

26-09-08

2008-09-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

Kamsahamnida =3

昨天晚上shufen送我回家的时候，以为自己已经好很多了。结果半夜睡到一半的时候真的去吐了…昨天没有吃很多东西，所以吐的不是很多…ha…整个晚上都睡不好，因为觉得很不舒服。D=
结果今天虽然很困，但是却不想睡觉。一点力气也没有~ @_@(果然是因为昨天中午吃太多辣椒的关系…最近因该都不敢吃了吧…)

Hmm~总而言之，现在好多了。=)
但是我好像对不起很多人…D=
早知道如此，昨天我就不因该去chalet，结果给大家带来这么大的麻烦…我很愧疚，觉得很抱歉。

我好像麻烦了很多人，对不起。
很感激昨天陪我等车的人，麻烦你们了，其实真的不需要那么多人陪我…谢谢你们…kamsahamnida…真的很对不起。

除了他们以外好像我还麻烦了其他人…昨天晚上因为不舒服，所以我也无心去留意什么，但是谢谢你们。=)

我很感动，因为感激；很抱歉，因为麻烦你们。

II Mare

2008-09-24T07:56:00.000-07:00

There are 3 things a person can't hide.. coughing, poverty and love.
The harder one tries to hide them, the more the rise to the surface. But there are times when u still want to hide things. I just sit and cry...cry and until i cant cry anymore.
Love is a self-inflicted pain.
I hope you'll find peace within you..

Eun-joo,everyone I care were always out of my reach...and i think i ached for them.

I waited for you a long time. I know 2 years is a long time but I stil hoped... I guess I expected too much . I know I shouldn't because it always leads to disappontment, but everyone I care about is so far away..what happened to you in those 2 years? I hope it was just a slip of memory..

Why didnt I show up? I wouldnt forget a promise like that..

Was i just a stranger to you? Am i only a meaningless faceless stranger to you?

Why didnt u tell me how you felt before? Do you remember your first letter? You wished me good fortune at II mare. Knowing u has been a blessing. this time i want to return this fortune to youu. best wishes to you. Thankyou for everything. Good bye...

The fact that i dont show up 2 years from now...must mean that we weren't mean to be.

and you are?
i hope you're ready to hear a long and magical tale. are you ready to trust me?

时间的距离让人感到空虚与寂寞...两个人相差了两年的时间，被时间阻挡着。在失恋的季节，他们认识了彼此，一起去同样的地方玩，一起去同样的地方散步。虽然感觉不到彼此的存在，却又多了一种感觉。

kunzite~

2008-09-23T22:41:00.001-07:00

Annyeonghaseyo~
momo的Kunzite终于要有自己的Blog了…o(^ ^)o 大家有空的时候要去他的blog支持他~

let's drink one more bottle momo~ XD haha.

2008-09-23T22:13:00.000-07:00

Momo说她最近喝这个喝到上瘾 …今天她来接我的时候，顺便也请我喝了一瓶。

味道… …
Hmm~因为第一次喝，所以第一口洒了出来,没有喝到=)
第二口~我喝到了汽水的味道…然后柠檬般酸酸的味道，接着又有一股很熟悉，似曾相识的感觉，同时我又觉得有Momo身上散发出来的活力与快乐；总而言之，在那几秒我真的觉得很…（幸福?）=3
Kamsahamnida~ momo~ =3
大家在茶余饭后的时候，也喝喝看吧。
不一样的人，因该能喝到不一样的味道吧~ o(^ ^)o

sms~ =3

2008-09-23T22:00:00.000-07:00

中秋节的时候，我收到了一条很温馨的sms。虽然现在有点晚，但是想要和大家分享一下。=3

世界上有一种草，只要用心寻找就能忘掉烦恼；人间有一种爱，只要用心感受，幸福就会存在；忙碌的生活带走的只是时间；对朋友的牵挂常留在心底，偶尔一个问候，一个祝福，让我们知道彼此还记得对方，感觉因为别离而更加深刻；有一条道路走过了总会想起，有一种感觉经过就难以忘记，有一段距离总是叫人难以企及，有一个朋友叫我永远不能舍弃。
阳光是我的祝福，月亮是我的祈祷，轻风是我的安抚，细雨是我的牵挂；
当流星划过的霎那，我许下心愿：

愿所有看到这几句话的人和他们的家人和朋友，永远幸福快乐，如同中秋的满月一样！=D
P.S. 虽然我们不能每天看到，但是月亮永远都是圆的！所以满月般的幸福永远都在那里！aza aza fighting!! o(^ ^)o

the happy ending~

2008-09-23T21:16:00.000-07:00

就算有多难过，也总是会有快乐事让你绽开微笑~这就是人生吧~（笑…）
所以现在就讲一些快乐的事吧。
因为之前的block每天都要在学校忙，所以我们干脆买了一大堆吃的东西然后才去学校XD…

对了，学校对面的sushi很好吃!!o(> <)o 有空的话，大家一定要去吃~=D
还有，在上个忙碌的星期里，我们也度过了xianling的生日。在xianlling生日的前一天晚上，christi,amanda还有我，我们3个一起去xianling家“打扰”她haha~

Happy birthday witch ling~ =3 辛苦你了！要过一个如此繁忙的生日…=）aza aza fighting! Hmm… 接下来是我对很多人的感谢=D

我真的觉得以后每过一个block就要写感谢很多人呢…haha…不可以再说对不起了！可是我真的觉得很..=X ops…

那么…

谢谢：

Xianling! 一直帮助我们，结果自己的功课反而做的很慢=0

Momo! 这个block我好像特别的“烦”你…haha..谢谢你~=3

Christi! Hehee…我终于去你家了~haha见过了“岳父”…XD 还有你的fifi~谢谢你帮我煮的面~

Akatsuki! 你的功课好像都很好玩的样子…D= 我要做你的assignments!! o(>_<)o~ XD 总之，谢谢你的陪伴，你的朋友们都很可爱~很高兴认识他们=D

Marcus! 谢谢你的鼓励~all the best to ur project~ ^ ^V你的生日快到了，happy birthday!! Hmm~还有谁呢…

谢谢amanda,munting 也是，还有那些在我tagboard支持我的人,在msn鼓励过过我的人，sms我让我加油的人，还有那些虽然没有说，但是我知道永远会支持我的人，还有…（说实话，我感到抱歉的人会比较多，所以可以再说一次对不起吗? XD…(笑)…）

最后，感谢上帝…

在我很低落的时候，我看到这么一句话：

Our life is a gift from God; what we do with that life is our gift to our God.

(我的眼睛有点湿湿的…haha)

=)

2008-09-22T23:58:00.000-07:00

finally....

마지막으로....

altough am dying...finally this block is over...

omg...i think maybe one day i might realy drop out from this course...nvm..dont think of this thing first....

but i'm really very sad because of who am i, why i'm so useless and always tend to lean on others.

i'm happy at the same time...because of momo who is willing to listen my heart, sam, akatsuki who person besides me when i was so stress.

i'm really sorry to xianling, christina , and doris.

감사합니다 & 유감스러운

也许你们听到我说了很多遍，但是我还要在说一句

对不起...

但是至少这个block终于完了...所以我因该笑吧~ =)

X_X

2008-09-18T17:29:00.000-07:00

8:29am
对不起，是我错了...
我很讨厌我自己，因为似乎我所做的每一件事都是错的。我知道我错了...可是你知道我真正的感受吗?
算了，我的感受一点也不重要...hmm...如果我从来没有存在过那该有多好...虽然会错过一切的快乐，但我宁愿如此,因为我是在受不了了...除了上帝以外，没有人，没有人能够帮我...可是现在的我充满着罪恶，感觉离上帝很远....
....我死了算了....